A black day

Today was a hard day, after the last two blissfully hopeful days today really knocked me out. I should have known, or maybe not, who knows. It started weird, I couldnt sleep last night then woke up an hour before the alarm this morning and when we were ready to go , I just rushed back to the kitchen and on my way by accident somehow made the glass coffe pot fall to ground . Usually i really dont care about breaking kitchen stuff, and in Germany we even have this superstition that breaking glass by accident brings luck , but today it gave me a bad feeling. All the more so that then DF started a fight about it, which I thought was particularly insensitive since I was on my way to an interview.

And now to what really was the last drop.When my friend mentioned this job offering in her multinational company I believed that since she is doing her job in English there, this one would be too. But once I got there and did my interview and found out the exact job describtion, my heart sunk. Its a French Executive's pa job ,I would have to write business letters in French and such like. Even though the interview went well, that basically means that I could never do my job well there. So all this hope for nothing.
Why on earth is it so hard to find a job that is done in English in this huge international city!!!

I was so close today to getting on the next flight out of here.
And what was the worst part, I had to call my mom and tell her that it didnt work out, AGAIN! That is what gets to me really is disappointing people ,who believe in me. God I wish I was still in school.I practically cried all afternoon.

And now after I finally managed to pull myself together again , DF's aunt calls. I didn't even want to pick up the phone. I mean I know she probably called because he told them something or other. And I think she is a wonderful kindhearted woman but people who sympathetically ask about my work stuff, after a day like this it just upsets me even more. And I did my best not to start crying again, I mean I met this lady once and didnt really want to fall apart on her.But I also was not really in a mood to be chatty. Oh well tomorrow is a new day. Am just signing up for monster.com,
and checking out my fave blogs ;stylemepretty.com and Storked! on glamour.com helped.

I planned this lovely blog for today about men's silly habits and Rilke, it will have to wait for another day. pauvre me :-)

Winter In Hungary

Since I figured that it is still February, and thus oficially winter I will just post a few of my favourite winter images now.I hate the fact that Paris is just rainy and grey in winter i miss snow and a sharp cold that properly snides into you when leaving your warm cosy home.

Isn't the 2nd picture pure peace and tranquility? I took it on Christmas vacation.

And the other is of people actually skating on a frozen lake, I thought that only happened in a long gone Dickensian world.But no in 2007! And I was so angry that I didnt have my skates with me, but hey at least I had my camera!

Old Friends

I am still in my earlier happy mode, and now even happier. I have just spoken for an hour to my friend back home and completely poured my heart out to her.(god bless skype, and FRIENDS) I mean real FRIENDS !

We have so many acquaintances here in Paris, but I dont have so many real close girlfriends. And sometimes I wish I could just call them over like we used to and watch a silly movie or sthing. Just the ones from high-school back home and my best friend from uni who moved into her far-far away homeland after finishing uni. I really miss her cause she was the one person with whom I really experienced my first two years in this city , all those funny things and great meals and times spent just around each other or in each others places or with other friends its weird that that is gone. But that is the reason why I am even happier, because she called and although we only sporadically speak cos of the costs and the distance and her schedule. Its great how with this kind of friend you instantly have the same connection to each other.

I feel a bit weird cause earlier today DF took first look at this blog, (and criticised my spelling:-), yeah well I wish the spell check on our latop wasnt french , that might help) and so now I feel a bit constrained , especially since so far this has really been a diary style , flow of consciousness. But I dont really want to think and write with an audience in mind.

I am Happy , oh so happy

I really dont know why , but I woke up in a really really good mood today , well one of the reasons is that I had such a lovely evening yesterday. First I met with some friends at juveniles a lovely wine resto owned by friends of my DF , and it was lots of fun one of my friends who works for a cosmetics company brought us all these goodies lipsticks and gloss and mascara , so me being a complete cosmetics junkie i was soo happy.The food as always was amazing as was the wine. Then my other friend told me about a job opening in her company where I could apply, and I also met these lovely friends of theirs ;

We then went to the caveau de montpensier a bar where we often go and my DF for once could join us because he finished early at work , and when some of our friends left, another few arrived it was this magically nice nights where you see people you really like , and meet new ones that are just super nice and all without planning.

All in all I have been such a recluse lately that it really gave me a boost. And I'm meeting one of my girlfriends for bubble tea tonite , another exciting thing to look forward to.

A few Paris things I love

Since I am now done with one of my work stuff I thought why not add a few Paris things I love. Was just listening to Astrud Gilberto and her songs inspired me, so;

°ZEN ZOO the best bubble tea place and delicious Asian food place in the 2nd arrondissement near Opera

°the flower shop in rue Cler, best prices for cut n potted flowers and soo beautiful !

°oh and since we're at rue Cler it also has my fave crepe stand in the city, the 3cheese crepe and lassic cinnamon sugar+butter is soo great

°the German bookstore right on the side of the Centre Pompidou

° Cafe Zimmer with its red velvety decor on Place de Chatelet

°and the Fumoir right by Louvre Rivoli for the cosy backroom full of books and two of my fave paintings, and their cocktails and The Complet,

°Angelina for the best hot chocolate in town

°WHSmith at Concorde, not he cheapest english books but love it for browsing and the amazing magazine selection

°Park de Buttes Chaumont , loove it especially on sunday's , no tourists at all, just people with strollers n babies, old ladies with dogs, and great landscaping;

°Goa, little indian resto in lil street off rue Grenelle, great food great prices n never made me sick (a plus with Indian food)

°Amorino best Italian ice-cream loove the pistachio, in the Marais in StGermain etc

°1969-rue des Lombards , naughty toys for couples, or just yourself, really cute shop n they sell naughty wedding gifts too;-)

°Anthony Peto- rue Tiquetonne guy stuff, hats, scarves and such but so fancy I loved it , plus cool fedoras that girls can wear too

°Chien qui fume, best traditional brasserie fare, great onion soup, lapin, and fricasse oh and the iles flottante !

°Cafe Chic-126 rue fauburg honore for the midnight hunger, serve food till much later than others

° Scoop and Breakfast in America for brunch , pancakes milkshakes everything American your heart desires that in Paris!

Oh, ok I kind of wanted to wait until I was done with my job application before I post again but hey , here I am and have even uploaded a picture taken from our balkony on a moody Paris day.

I should really get myself to send cv-s again. After I got the phone calls for my interviews on monday I kind of stopped and I feel so bad about it, its just that 2 months of looking for jobs really eats at my energy.

Other than that I really must make a decision about the wedding, we had a wedding planning/ catering company , but since they seem to have no idea bout food and we and most of our friends are serious foodies , it must be perfect. So i suppose they're out of the run, but that leaves me to find a wedding organizer in the country of our wedding ,while being in Paris. Plus I must call the woman at the venue to make sure its still free on our date.

But I also got good news today, an old college friend of mine might move to London in October Im very excited cos he's an awesome lovely lovely guy, and I'd love him to be so close , just shouldnt seem to excited in front of DF . If one day they meet i dont want him to be unfriendly especially since he already knows that I had a crush on this guy at some point . (He had a girlfriend we became just frinds and thats that)

I am also still thinking about the possibility of moving to London , since Paris seems to be steeped in the, have an internship instead of a job wave, it might be a good idea. I never really planned on staying here after Uni it just happened that way , DF always wanted to live in Paris his whole life, and i found a job here quite quickly . But ultimately I think London might be the better option career wise, especially since my French is still far from perfection and since the communications industry there is far more evolved. The only thing is, I really dont feel like having to deal with moving there AND planning a wedding at the same time.
Oh well thats the dilemma , but hey as long as there is no real job offers its not really a dilemma, is it.
Sorry long post today .

Yeay! and welcome to aMiss in Paris!

Since I have become sooo horribly addicted to the blogs on glamour.com, and since I've been grappling with my own situation, living in Paris, looking for jobs, having moved in with my DF (Dear Fiancee) and planning my (sorry OUR) wedding

AND since i have spent the last hour or so procrastinating, i figured why not start my own blog. At least a creative way to procrastinate, no?
I mean i have finished all the gummy bears in the house , plucked my eyebrows, (my secret alone behaviour), looked through old magazines, had a cup of tea, called e-mailed n facebooked friends etc. And have still not finished the application for this graduate work opportunity thing. I mean i have to answer questions like 'Why do you want to work in PR?' and 'Write a press release about yourself.' uh sooo not feeling it.

Not to mention that I have been to 2 interviews yesterday, and of course one of them, the one i'm more likely to be offered, pays next to nothing, and the other one , oh well how dare i even hope. Sometimes keeping my self confidence while on job search is really hard.
I know i have such lovely supportive people around me and have certain aspects that make me qualified, and still feel completely like reaching for the stars, just hoping for a normal interesting well paid job.

Oh well, i'll go n try to work on my positive attitude.

xx,M